October 25th, 2011 – after wondering for a few days that I ni pregnant ke ape ni?? Coz dh perasan period lambat kali ni. Roughly, dlm seminggu jgk la. Today, I went for check up jgk lah! Berdebar jgk tunggu result. Then, petugas klinik tu congratulated me!! Haha!! Yes, I’m positive pregnant for 2nd child! Alhamdulillah! But at the same time, I’m thinking of Yaya, my first lovely daughter. Kesian plk kt dia sbb takut dia x puas nk bermanja2 lg tbe2 dh ade adik plk. I thought to plan having 2nd baby after Yaya sudah memcecah umur 3-4 tahun. But, rezeki datang awal Allah nk bagi kan.
Cuba jgk pujuk hati yg berbelah bahagi ni. I’m ok with the 2nd baby coming in. But, when thinking again about the maternity period, confinement sume…Yaya especially, perasaan mcm alamak…blh ke I manage sume2 benda ni?? I know I’m not alone but, pity to my mom yg sudah tentunye org paling penting yg akan jaga I during confinement nnt. Kesian dia sure penat! Komitmen2 yg lain lg? hmm…but at the same time I pn xnk lah ‘di chop’ sbg hamba yg x reti nk bersyukur kpd Allah sbb Dia dh bg rezeki dapat anak awal kan. Suppose terima seadanya dan wajib bersyukur. Yes, Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Syukur ke hadrat Mu Ya Allah. Terima kasih Allah kerana memberi ku rezeki dgn cepat. Macam x percaya jgk ni sudah ade 2 orang anak! Huhu!!
I kene yakin yg I blh manage sume perkara2 yg ada dan bakal ade di depan mata I ni. InsyaAllah! Think positive! Allah itu Maha Mengasihi hamba2 Nya. InsyaAllah, semoga rezeki kami lebih murah dgn adenye org baru ini. Amin…Amin..Ya Rabbal Al–Amin.
